trying

If anyone is out there reading this .... sorry. I have been 'missing in inaction', as it were, as far as my blog goes.

I feel a bit like I have been taking a long walk down a long hall ~ a long narrow hall. There is little space, there is nothing on the walls, the white changeless walls, there is nothing but sameness and walking forward...and away  --  away? Away from?

I don't know. That is how it feels sometimes when I haven't written for a while. The place inside where I 'hear' what I write is empty...vacant like the white changeless walls of that hallway mentioned above. I am moving forward but in an empty just going, but going nowhere sort of way. When I get into these vacant places, as I walk toward the computer to sit and write, or even THINK about walking toward the computer to sit and write, the feeling is like ... well you know when you were a kid and it was fun to play with magnets? One side of the magnet -- say the north side -- would join, CLINK, to one side, say the south side, of another magnet.  However if you turned one of them and tried to put north to north...no clink, no joining. In fact there was a push from both....you just could not get them together. OK, that was a LONG explanation for a simple thing....but THAT is how I felt about sitting down to write ~ like I would aim at the computer and whoosh...pushed way. North facing North /South facing South.

For the last couple days it has been haunting me though. Like a whisper in an empty, echo-y room, "try, just try".  OK...so this long explanation is my first try. I read through my last couple of blogs. I sat and started to write. OK ~ this one isn't "about" any thing. But ... I am going to try again.